Come Christmas Eve...

Was not able to be with my family tonight, but I was with my friends and her. It was really worth it. For the first time, I was able to spend my Christmas with my special someone. Even though I was "working" during that night, it wasn't a bother to me. I was also happy that Mel was also there to go with me. Even though she really doesn't want to go to work.

She gave me gifts, to which I thought she wouldn't give me one. She gave me two. I love it. Thanks Babe!

Merry Christmas! :)

Got an upgrade!

I think this is the first time I bought myself something I like. That's because most of my money went to my past relationship.

I love how my PC works now. Not that I didn't like it before, it's much more faster now. New LCD and PC... Damn! More gaming experience! Get ready to play CoD4! Yehey!

Too much is too much...

I find it hard to believe that she loves me like that. Sometimes she makes me feel like just a friend, but most of the time, she does simple things that shows she loves me.

I slept at her house the other day.

It really felt good knowing someone loves you with trust. I thought trust can be gained easily by someone you really love, and loves you back. But I was completely wrong. With my ex, I was never really completely happy when we got back together. It was as if I was living her life, not mine. Showing her how much she meant to me was being an obligation just to save the relationship we had.

There would come a time where you'll get fed up on how she treats you, how she looks at you, and how she makes you feel. Forgiveness is part of love, right? You can never forgive if you can't forget.

I don't want to regret anything, coz I know what happend taught me a lot of things. I'm happy right now... Completely HAPPY! Cheezy as it may seem, I really love my babe.

My thoughts right now...

Was I happy this past few months? Will I be happy the rest of the year? Which is a few weeks from now. I'm sure I will be. So far, so good... I'm contented.

I'm afraid of showing her how much she means to me. I'm afraid to hold her tight, she might let go. I am contented, in a way that I have everything I need. But is she? There are a lot of things that's new to her. I don't really know how I'm going to show her that. Teach her that even. There's a big part of me that wants to tell her everything. But that small part of me that just wants to say "Whatever happens, happens..."

My past relationships always plans for the future. But this time, I'm happy the way things are. The way they work out. I don't really have to plan 3 to 5 years from now. What will happen or whatever. There's really no point right? If it works out, then good. If not, then bad. I'll just plan for my career.

One thing I learn while being with her for almost a month already, is being happy. Not making things complicated when life can still be as simple as 1,2,3...

Right now. I am Happy! and I hope it won't end soon...

My 2008... A lot happened.

This year... was the most unforgettable year I had, so far. As the title says, a lot happened. It was a long year!

The only thing I regret was not being able to talk to my friend one last time before she passed away. It was my fault, and I hated myself for that. I wasn't even there for her.

I also had the longest on & off relationship! Talk about breaking up every other day and getting back together within the day. Stupid huh? That's me. 100% stupidity is written all over my back! But I learned a lot. Especially letting go of something that will never really work. And accepting the fact that relationship without trust is just plain dumb!

Turned 24 last Dec 5

Yeah! I'm old enough already! I thought of why is it a big deal when your 22 and up, you should at least be independent! I really don't think that's true. I'm enjoying almost everything right now. Why would I have to problem about bills and stuff if I don't really have to. Right?

Sonia's - Anti-MEAT resto

whaaa! it was just yesterday when we went to this restaurant where you have to eat GRASS! i have nothing against salads, but eating a "complete meal" without meat?! no way! its in Tagaytay! im not sure bout the spelling of the name though. NO MENU! >_< everybody eats the same thing! 1st course: salad, 2nd: pasta (oh no! not ur usual ground beef sauce!) with uhhhMmm.. mushroom sauce? not a single meat! 3rd: turon! (that's the only thing i like!) there's no Coke! Pepsi or any softdrinks.. it was almost HELL!! i knw i should be eating healthy food.. but that's too much for me! if we're going back there.. im bringing my own food! hehehhe!

CLASSES STARTS 2day! damn it..

after 2 weeks of vacation (*sigh*).. we're back in school. at least i get to be with my wacky classmates. badnews is, defense schedule is posted! (tananananan!) this is going to freak me out! but still, our schedule is not posted yet! that's much more creepy! they might tell us the day before.. (God help me!) hayy.. i wish we can finish it on time. :( i really do hope i'll graduate this year!

Lesson for the day: THESIS is no JOKE!